100 thoughts on “🏥 Emotional Moments: Overwhelmed in the Hospital 😫 (5/1/18)

  1. I spent a month in the hospital because of a surgery that went wrong in March, and I know what you’re feeling. They’re fixing you up physically, but the process is slow and you just can’t wait to be home. It’s an emotional wreck. I’ll be praying for you and sending good thoughts, keep fighting!

  2. Hang in there, Jaquie, the Lord is with you always! Sending out lots of love to you!

  3. I'd come keep you company if I were in Florida! I've been completely dependent on TPN since 2012. You may have a little more nausea and it often times makes everything taste sickening sweet, but you will be feeling much better in a few days. Tpn is basically a banana bag with protein and fat added to it. There are no histamine free tpn mixes, so you will probably tolerate it better if they put pepcid or zantac directly in the tpn bag. You will have to ask your doctor, but most are fine with it and both are tpn compatible. It will help neutralize the histadine before it is pumped into your bloodstream. I'm sooooo glad they are starting a picc line! It hurts way less than tube changes. They will numb your arm. I've had many throughout the years and they will use lidocaine, benadryl, or saline. I was shocked the times I got the last two. They used a tiny insulin syringe and made a little bubble/blister right under my skin and then inserted the big needle right away. It's one big stick and you are done! The good news is they can draw blood from the picc line so they won't have to keep poking you. Because of the amounts of sugar and fat the TPN has and you being on antibiotics, you will be very susceptible to blood/line infections with yeast and bacteria. If you get a line infection, they have to take it out and put a whole new one in, which is why using your port is a bad idea now. When hospitalized, I care for my line and administer all iv meds or I insist nurses wash their hands in front of me and use hand sanitizer over their gloves before they touch my line. It drives some of them crazy, but they aren't the ones in the hospital with and infection! Many people get high blood sugars from the tpn, so they may check yours frequently. Because of one of the nerve/pain issues I have, they can't ever poke my fingers. If that bothers you, tell them to use your earlobe. It does't hurt at all that way. If you have any questions, I'd be more than happy to answer them. I'm sending happy, healthy, healing thoughts your way!

  4. Your Mom is such a wonderful lady.  I enjoy every video with her in it.  Her students are blessed to have her in their lives.

  5. You are so brave Jaquie.

    Thank you so much for sharing your experience with us. It makes me more comfortable getting procedures done if I can see someone else's experience.

    Thank you for helping me and so many others.

    I hope everything goes well.

  6. I'm so sorry you're having to stay for so long. My heart goes out to you all. My mom has had up to 8 month long hospital stays and I stay with her day and night to advocate for her, it feels like jail after a while. I'm praying for you to have a speedy and thorough recovery. Much love from Dallas

  7. I've had so many Picc lines for TPN and I had my Picc lines all inserted by my bedside with local anaesthetic as well as a mild sedative. It can be uncomfortable as with eds our bodies don't respond well to local anaesthetics so for me I felt a lot of poking, prodding and it was uncomfortable but not painful as the light sedative helped relax me throughout the Picc line insertion procedure. TPN will be a good short term solution for your nutritional requirements, you will start to gain weight and feel more energised on TPN within a few days, but please get them to monitor your blood glucose levels as I had and still continue to have lots of issues with my blood sugars being very low a few hours after finishing my TPN feed in the mornings. I feel your frustrations Jaquie, please know I am and continue to go through all you are dealing with in terms of infections, TPN, Picc lines, J Tubes etc. but you are so strong and I know you can do this Jacquie. Thinking of you always.

  8. YES!!!so glad you’re using the oils now with thc,its something so amazing.I used to suffer from chronic pain but once in awhile or just a super hard day at work I use marijuana and it makes you feel amazing.For me when I get “enough” rest it doesnt feel like enough but marijuana really makes me put in ease.

  9. Sorry about all this new drama your having to deal with ..let us hope that things start to run smoother once more and you get back on your feet and out of their soon.

  10. At this time you need your husband aww my heart aches for you. God bless you and your mom. To have her there with you is awesome I'll be praying for you hun try and stay strong 😢💪💪💪❤

  11. Ok Mija I understand everything you said, however, on the day that you are to be released, I would seriously hope that you have them or else they stand by and allow you to access your port line BEFORE you are released, to make sure that it's in good shape and ready to receive your I.V. therapies when you get home. That way if it's going to cause problems for you it's best they know ahead of time and maybe could address that right there and then!

  12. I had a PIC line before open heart surgery, stick and burn, then it's over. Then you get some nutrition !

  13. I’m so sorry to hear you are having such a difficult time. It’s very hard being away from home. You’ve been through so much in the last few months. I hope your progress now is straightforward and no more setbacks

  14. I completely understand everything you are feeling. And it's ok to feel like this. Just remember will over come this like we did before. I'm angry at literally everything, I was doing so well. I was gaining weight and my GI issue were kinda blurring away. Yesterday, I was in bed all day. I cried I laughed and cried some more. I'm taking antibiotics and I hate them! However, I am thankful That they're helping one thing. Heating pad is my best friend forever lol Will be alright! #warriors

  15. i feel really bad for you and cried for you ((((HUGS))). Many yrs ago I spent 7 weeks in the hospital. I remember looking out the window and trying to remember what fresh air smelled like. I was 2 hrs away from home very poor, so could only see my little girl (then 2 yrs old) 1 time a week and could not talk to anyone (long distance back then was very costly) and could not even afford to have the hospital TV service turned on. I tell you this to let you know, that I fully understand.

  16. No one can be brave every minute of every day. You do such a great job of fighting your way back to being strong. As the person making the videos, I think it is harder for you to understand what kind of an impact your vlogs make. I watch other Chanels, but I care so much about you. I enjoy watching other you tubers, but I have grown to care so much about you. I wish there was something I could do to help. All I can do is tell you how much you are loved and cared for by people you will never even meet. We are rooting for you.

  17. God is with you . You just have to take this 1 minute at a time. It’s hard but you are a warrior! 💪

  18. Keep on fighting your an amazing person you will get through this you just have to keep on going good luck

  19. Oh, Sweetie! of course you feel rotten Darling – you need Doggie – love! & your Mumma too. Hang on, you'll be home soon. ❤️❤️❤️from Australia

  20. I'm so sorry that you aren't doing great! Really hope that you will leave the hospital soon! One day down is another day closer to going home! You got this Jaquie! Please don't give up! Sending you hugs and prayers to a quick recovery!

  21. That pocket of pus needed to come away sweetie. Hopefully now it’s gone the infection will clear up more quickly xxxxxx

  22. You’re one step closer to where you wanna be. You’re strong, and you got this!!! 💜💜💜

  23. Hey girl, I’m so sorry they r having you stay even longer then u had hoped for! It’s horrible when you think u will b going home and then they throw that curve ball at you. I just found out I will be going into surgery in the next week or two to replace my pacemaker and all of my internal pacemaker leads because I have been having fainting spells since they replaced it back in November with a new company and my dr are HOPEFUL but not sure if it will fix my problem or not. So I know how you feel. Keep us all posted on how you are doing I love watching your videos whenever ur able to post them! Feel better hun and stay strong! What doesn’t kill us makes us stronger!
    Ur loyal subscriber,
    Tabby

  24. I've been through a bad infection I almost died from. Was on a pick one for monthes.Then sent to a nursing home for rehab.Stay strong it will pass,God is on your side.

  25. I'll be praying for you. I hope that all ends up well for you and the family ( Harlow is included of course). All the love, maddie

  26. Sending you all my love from NZ ❤ I had the pic line for TPN at my last hospital stay… It's not too bad hun & the nutrition saved my life so I'm grateful for that. You've got this Jac! It will be just what you need to get stronger!

    Yes the emotional side of long, painful hospital stays is very challenging….Good to let yourself express those emotions & have those moments… Hang in there hun ❤ Love, Nicole xoxo

  27. I’m so sorry you’re still not doing well Jaquie. I’ve been praying for you this week. Hoping you’ll be able to come home soon!

  28. May your time in the hospital go fast! So sorry you have to go through all of this! If I was in Florida I would challenge you to a game of Trouble! 🌷

  29. sorry that your not feeling well hope you feel better soon so you can go home. sending love and prays from NZ 💗

  30. i get home sick and have issues with being away from home and my family i feel your pain hold strong keep praying he knows you got this having family with you helps you relax GOD Bless

  31. Since you have a ‘removable’ button in your stoma is there no chance your doctors could take it out drain some of the puss and infection out and clean it out a lil and then place in a new button in. I understand that it would be very painful but it might work? I’ve heard some people refer to it as an ‘extreme’ body piercing and when myself get occasional piercing infections I take it out and clean out the area and place in a new sterilised piercing in to help 😊 I know it’s different but thought it was an idea 😊 hope your gonna improve soon, remember no matter how frustrating it is being there it’s the best place right now

  32. Praying for you to be positive and pain free as well as out of hospital soon ❤️ I know it’s a pain but you will heal up soon 😊

  33. Oh Jacquie, I’m praying for you sweetie! You are right-you need to get emotional-you need to be able to be pissed, scream and cry girl-you have every right too!!! Glad your mom and hippo came to spend time with you! Best of luck with the pic line! Prayers and hugs.

  34. I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this and I'm sure you're getting sick of encouraging words because they only do so much (i get that way sometimes) but if anyone can get through this it's you. thank you for being an inspiration to me while I deal with chronic illness and thank you for being an amazing role model. still praying for you and wish i could do something to help! <3

  35. Hey Jaquie, I’ve been thinking about you a lot chicky! Do you hear much from Janice while in hospital? Does she visit you? Please know that we are all thinking of you and are holding your hand through this very hard time! I watch your videos every single day I suffer from rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia and I find your videos inspire me to try and do something even if it’s only something small each day! I honestly feel like you are such an inspiration and such an amazing woman with so many challenges but yet you overcome them and look on the positive side of life and I need to learn from you on that as my illnesses like to control me a lot. I live in Australia by the way! Oh I have another question/suggestion. When I go to hospital I always bring my assistance dog and the nurse staff are always happy to toilet my girl and bring them water and things like that. Is it different over in America? Do the nurse staff not like to help with service dogs? as I think having Harlow with you constantly would bring you a little bit of happiness even while you’re having such a hard time maybe it’s something you could talk to the nurses about?? Just a suggestion anyway as I see how much you light up when your pup is with you xoxo sending you so much love and holding your hand through this very hard you have got this!!,

  36. Jaq is a WARRIOR. Health issues are so mentally taxing. Not knowing what’s going on with your own body is a new level of stress. Her ability to handle her health when she’s NOT in the hospital is awe inspiring and an indicator of how strong she has become. Breaking down in the hospital is completely understandable – gotta know when it’s smart to just let the feelings out. She gives me so much inspiration and is a role model so we can learn how to be brave but also how to be human. ❤️

  37. Just curious why you can’t do IV antibiotics at home- esp since you have a port? Where I am from, they can’t admit people just for IV antibiotics because our hospitals are way too full for that! We have lots of home care!

  38. I’m so sorry you can’t go home as soon as you were expecting. You are always allowed to be emotional and have moments. I can only imagine how taxing it is to be in the hospital with frustrating symptoms. ❤️

    My Tuesday was terrible, too. I was swamped with emergency cases and I lost two of my patients I was helping with (I’m a vet student) and I worked about 16 hours and was very exhausted. I was feeling so down and upset but today was so much better. It’s like you say, tomorrow is a new day and we just gotta keep moving forward!

  39. Keeping you in my prayers. Sending get well hugs. I’m so sorry you have to stay another week. 😊

  40. Your mom showed up with Harlow just in the nick of time!💟 I saw such an improvement in your overall well being just hugging Harlow.🐶 Our SD's don't JUST provide mobility, or whatever tasks they've been trained to do for our individual disabilities… they provide LIFE and HAPPINESS and JOY when we feel hope slipping away because control of our circumstances has been removed. Hold on Jacquie! Control is coming back to you! I know it's in God's time, BUT His healing hands are upon you💟💜

  41. 🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹Jacque🌹🌹🌹
    🌹🌹🌹🌹 I totally get you🌹💕.Spending so much time, in hospital, can overwhelm us, and just make us, feel so down.
    I'm praying, you will get this, figured out, healed and get back home💕. I'm just glad, your beautiful, loving mama, can stay, with you. Us gals, need our mama's next to us, especially while we, are in the hospital🌞💕. It always a big bonus, seeing Ms Marlow. She so love you girl🌿💕. Summers here, time to get feeling a lot better, and get out, in that beautiful Florida sunshine💕🌞🌴. You and your family, are always in my prayers, that you will be fully healed🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹"Just Believe🌹🌹🌹🌹 Jacquie"🌹🌹🌹🌹
    🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹

  42. Are u still in Orlando or are u in a hospital in Tampa?
    I wish I could come see u.
    I know we hat it's like being in the hospital a long time, iv been in the hospital more times then u can count BUT in 2008 I was in the hospital for…..2 months I think…..because of negligence from a doctor, plus they had to stick me 11 times for an iv in my arm, and it kept messing up and ….ughhh…it was just hard and I ended up losing the motion and feeling in my hands and arms bc they took out my s hunt and didn't replace it. Iv got most of it back now (finally thet put a new shunt in)

  43. Medical marijuana saved my son's life. It has helped him so much with pain, communication and most of all his anxiety and panic attacks are much easier to control. I'm really sorry you have been so ill and there is nothing like the love of family, friends and Harlow's snuggles. 🐶💜🙏

  44. I’m sorry for your tough couple of days! But it might cheer you up that Malinda (who does the google translate sings on Yt) featured your photo/channel on her compliments track for youtubers! (:

  45. I hope you are starting to feel better and getting some rest. Been thinking of you all week. I hate being in the hospital. All the beeping, nurses coming in and out all hours of the night and day make it hard to sleep and that is when you need it most.

  46. Sweetheart, even warriors fall down sometimes. It's OK. Live your truth. If that means today you cry and get pissed off because of what you're going through, so be it. Those of us who follow you know that you are not a wallower, no "poor me" exists in your vocabulary. Cry your eyes out sweet girl. Rage against the injustice of it all. Snuggle your puppy, cuddle with your husband, play trouble with Mom and tomorrow, you can keep moving toward.

  47. I cant stand to see you in hospital. I just want to scoop you up and take you home and do magic and you will be all healed. There has got to be something they can do to stop all this on you. Love you a lot. Hugs

  48. You're the Best!… and you're doing great! Hang in there! The more visitors you can get in to see you, rhe better. This will help you bridge your time in the hospital until you can get home; where you want to be! Hold you're stuffed animal close when you have no one else there to comfort you! I really wish I could see you with Harlow, and he could stay with you always in the hospital. It could make all the difference.

  49. I’m so sorry. If you can just make it over this hurdle, I promise when you can use your thc, it will get better. Besides the relief with nausea and appetite, it can also diffuse these moments of emotional distress. I’d be so upset, take my thc, and almost immediately feel happier. I could calm down and get distracted. It really improves quality of life. I’m praying your current issues will resolve, so you can finally go home. Hugs and kisses 😘

  50. I had to do a second Jtube surgery. It sucked, obvs, pain wise it was not as bad as the first. I cannot say it was specific or that we planned the 2nd sx a bit better. My first Jtube sx was planned outpatient. Wen for sx… woke up admitted for a week. Not cool. LoL. I always wonder why docs are so different in regards to TPN and using port versus PICC. Hopefully the TPN will help in the exhaust of everything.

  51. PICC lines are probably best for temp TPN. The placement is pretty easy. Quick burn when the inject the lidocaine (or whatever the use to numb). After that you shouldn't feel too much. Ive had several placed. Now both the PICC team and IR jave flagged me for no PICC access because it will no longer thread because od scar tissue build up from so many lines. Weve jad to use a midline for PPN a couple times. Whatever you (or anyome reading this) do NOT EVER let the medical team run TPN thrpugh a midline. It was the worst pain ever. After a few hours of running I legit thought i was having a heart attack jaha
    Many use the terms tpn and ppn interchangeably. It is not the case. At all!!

  52. since lost other tube seems like your body is hitting you with all health issues at once i hope you start to feel better soon sending love and positive oughts xxx from uk

  53. Hang in there Hun. I wish I was closer to you and could help you through this. We would be able to comfort each other in these harder days. The emotions that us with a chronic illness go through is rough, but we have to let them out. I am there in spirit and pray for you daily. Sending you the biggest hug 🤗 I can from Illinois. Zebra 🦓 strong 💪🏻!

  54. I'm so sorry you're still in the hospital! I'm really glad you've found another tool in the medical marijuana! Yay!

  55. I wish you could hire someone to pick Harlow up and bring her to you in am, be there for Harlow’s needs during the day, and take her home in pm. Having your dog to snuggle with all day could help so much. If such a person could be found, maybe your many YouTube supporters could help fund? (Beth)

  56. Your joy with Harlow is wonderful. I am so happy he can be there with you at times. I am so glad you have such strong supports, both human and non-human 🙂

  57. I know you’re feeling better right now as I’ve only subscribed to your channel very recently, but I just happened to see this video today felt so hurt for you!Just wanted to say how very glad I am that you’re doing better now! I’ve had to deal with my own physical health challenges as well as depression & anxiety. While I may not know exactly what it’s like to go through all you have I can empathize with you. I wish you well… after watching your videos these last few weeks I feel like you’re a friend! I enjoy sharing in your adventures, and you offer me added strength. Coming along on your adventures with Judd, your Mom & other family, Harlow & your friends has been a refreshing boost of inspiration. Thank you for sharing your experiences with us.

  58. Sweetie you're in my prayers and it's ok to cry out to God when you need to. I'm so happy to see your mother and Harlow there with you for the emotional support. You have a special place in my heart for your family & friends. I wish that I could give you a hug and some glodly love. Much love and respect and God bless 🌹❤🌹🐶

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